I took the understanding myself personality assessment from Jorden Peterson to better grasp my traits and aspects. If I can name them, I can shape them into something I want to become.
My score is:
Agreeableness – 65
Extraversion – 5
Conscientiousness – 23
Openness – 3
Neuroticism – 96
I will try and summarise these as I would like to go into more depth in other posts.
Agreeableness: Moderately High
People high in agreeableness are friendly: compliant, nurturing, kind, naively trusting and conciliatory. They tend to avoid conflict and often dissemble and hide what they think. Others see them as cooperative, warm and considerate, looking for the best in others, and interpersonally tolerant. They do not like someone’s feelings getting hurt and are concerned about others but tend to be submissive. They are forgiving, accepting, flexible, gentle and patient. They tend to pity those who are excluded, punished or defeated. They generally feel that people should work cooperatively; however, they have to be careful not to be taken advantage of. They may also find engaging in arguments challenging and even avoiding discussions. This can produce a tendency to resentment and hidden anger. Furthermore, because they tended to avoid or reduce conflict, moderately agreeable people may be tempted to sacrifice medium- to long-term stability and function for short-term peace.
Conscientiousness: Moderately Low
People moderately low in conscientiousness are not particularly dutiful. They are by no means
sloggers. They will only work hard if pushed and don’t mind wasting time. They are pretty likely
to procrastinate. If people with moderately low conscientiousness commit to doing something, they will be late or delayed and deliver excuses for their failures. They are not markedly decisive, neat, organized, future-oriented, or reliable and are easily distracted. They are unlikely to make career accomplishment a primary goal, turning instead to the pursuit of safety and security (if high in neuroticism), creativity, and establishment of intimate relationships and friendships (if highly agreeable). They are not judgmental of themselves or others and can easily handle periods of inactivity and unemployment. They tend to downplay the relationship between hard work, diligence and success, believing that chance factors and luck play a determining role. They can be good at relaxing and living in the moment and are less concerned with cleaning, moral purity and achievement than average. It’s more fun to be at the beach or a party with a person moderately low in conscientiousness – but you might not want to invite them over on a moving day.
Extraversion: Very Low
People with very low levels of extraversion are strikingly less enthusiastic, talkative, assertive in
social situations, or gregarious. They find social contact rapidly draining and tiring and crave
time alone to recharge. They are very much less likely to plan parties, tell jokes, make people
laugh, or volunteer for community activities. They are much more likely to be depressed and have lower levels of self-esteem. They tend to be somewhat pessimistic about the past and present. They keep things to themselves, feeling no compulsion to share their thoughts with others. They are not self-disclosing and warm up slowly to other people. They are uncomfortable with group-oriented situations, much preferring one-to-one interactions. They are much less likely to speak up in meetings, rarely speak first, and generally must be prodded for an opinion. They are strikingly less likely to captivate and convince, especially in groups, and will rarely be the first to act in an ambiguous situation. People deficient in extraversion are seldom impulsive, even when offered the opportunity to do something particularly exciting or fun. Therefore, They are not likely to sacrifice the future for the present when something social or group-oriented beckons. They would much rather be alone to study and work. They are less dominant in social situations.
Neuroticism: Exceptionally High
People with exceptionally high levels of neuroticism are more likely to think that things have gone wrong in the past, are going wrong now, and will continue to go wrong into the future. They are also likelier to be unhappy, anxious and irritable when just thinking or remembering and encountering a genuine problem. They have deficient levels of self-esteem, particularly when they are also low in extraversion. Neuroticism is a risk factor for anxiety disorders and depression. They appear to be highly risk-averse, which means they will avoid recreational, career, financial and social situations where the possibility of loss is high. Such people appear to be unusually concerned with maintaining their current status rather than enhancing it. Perhaps this is a good strategy in genuinely dangerous or uncertain times.
Openness: Exceptionally Low
People with low levels of openness are highly conventional, conservative people. They are not interested in novelty or change. They are not interested in learning, particularly for its own sake, preferring to stick with what they know. They never engage in abstract thinking and do not attend to or consider philosophical issues, such as the meaning of belief systems and ideologies. They don’t attend cultural events such as movies, concerts, dance recitals, plays, poetry readings, gallery openings and art shows, failing to find them meaningful or engaging. They are likely to dislike writing and actively avoid complex problems and abstract ideas. They don’t read much and stick to mainstream material when they do so. They have an extremely narrow range of interests and a conventional and restricted vocabulary. They may have real difficulty with abstract thinking and learn much less quickly, as well as being far less intrinsically interested in doing so. They come up with new ideas infrequently and experience difficulty getting their thoughts across to others. People deficient in openness stay firmly and immovably on the beaten path and find their satisfaction in the tried-and-true. They actively avoid complex intellectual problems or challenges. They are not creative or revolutionary thinkers. They do not shake things up. People deficient in openness have a much narrower and more focused range of interests. This makes it remarkably more effortless for them to settle on a single path in life, specialize to a necessary degree, and create an integrated identity. People deficient in openness virtually never undermine their convictions or beliefs by excessive questioning.